Internal Rhyme

Happy 2 years of matrimony to my one and only 😍💕 I would live this day 100 times over if I could! I’m so grateful to have a priceless and perfect partner in my journey. Thank you for everything you are and everything you do! This year we brought a new life into this world and have gone from wife and husband to mom and dad, and I couldn’t ask for anyone better to raise Eliana. I can’t wait to see what the next year of marriage brings us 😽🧡

Last week, my lifetime fear and nightmare become a reality - I lost my mom, Stacie Goldsmith. There are so many complicated emotions to feel, and yet I feel nothing at the same time, just existing with a sense of emptiness that is difficult to describe. There is a hole in my heart that will never be filled, as it shouldn’t, because my mom is irreplaceable. My mom was a superhero of a woman, raising me on her own in unbelievably difficult circumstances; and she didn’t just do the bare minimum, she excelled as a parent, family member, friend, community member, and all around human being. She was my lifelong best friend and someone whose presence I could always enjoy no matter how limited our activities became with time. I am beyond grateful that she got to walk me down the aisle during our wedding and bask in the joy of being Nana during her final 5 months of life. But I am also angry and hurt knowing all of the memories we should have had from here. And yet I am comforted knowing that my mom’s memory is now defined by the fullness of her humanity and not just her diagnosis, because she was so much more than people got to know in her later years. My mom’s memory will always live on through my life, Amanda’s, Eliana’s, and all of our family’s generations to come. There won’t ever be a day where I don’t need you mom, and we will be connected for eternity 💕❤️‍🩹 I love you forever 🕊️