Everything2gain

Stupid facebook just said we had a memory together then disappeared.
Its hard not being able to just call you and ask how to build or plumb something.
Or just sit on the couch and bu****it everyday. Multiple times a day.
Its hard not hearing "hey boy" all the time.
Its hard nit getting that look you give. You know which one.

We should have had more time together.
I was hoping to show you what I will achieve before your passing.
Make you proud.
But we never know when the last moment will be.

Soo many questions and conversations we should have had.

I haven't chewed or fu**ed up my hands since that day.
Not even once in longer than 30 years.
I knew i would be with you until the end. And giving CPR was the second to hardest thing ever 1st being watching the paramedics take over and work for an hour.

The 3rd being my sister and serenity leaving.
That kid gave me a purpose and meaning in life.

If it comes in threes there better be a awesome "win" soon because like come on man give me a break.

Sorry I cant make it to the funeral.
Even if I could I dont know if I could.

Man I miss you....

If I cant do right by you, I will atleast do it for me in memory of you.

Maybe then I can sleep at night.

Probably getting eaten by a bear tonight. Maybe the dog will defend me? Not likely....

What are the odds of having 33 like and 33 followers at the same time
Them numbers again