Heartstrings & Ink

I am the embodiment of chaos.

Not the loud kind.
The kind that smiles and still ruins things.

I overthink until love suffocates.
I stay silent until it sounds like I don’t care.
I feel too much, then act like I feel nothing.

People don’t leave because I’m cruel.
They leave because I’m complicated
and I don’t know how to ask for patience
without sounding weak.

I want order.
I crave peace.
But my mind is a room with too many open tabs
and none of them are kind.

I ruin good moments by remembering bad ones.
I sabotage closeness by expecting loss.
I push before I’m pushed.

That’s my chaos.

Not fire.
Not storms.
Just a man
who loves deeply
and doesn’t know how to do it
without breaking something in the process.

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