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These remains… these pages torn from books, this music, these fragments of songs, all these pictures
I recently learned about something called the starting over theory, and it knocked the wind out of me in the best way.
The theory is simple:
Every time your life asks you to begin again — in your creativity, your relationship, your career, your identity — it isn’t proof that you “failed.”
It’s proof that your soul is evolving faster than your old life can hold.
Starting over doesn’t mean you lost the plot.
It means you outgrew it.
No one tells you this part.
No one tells you that the version of you who walked away wasn’t the quitter — S/he was the one brave enough to say,
“This chapter has nothing left for me, and i’m willing to bet my life on the next one.”
No one tells you how terrifying it feels when the familiarity collapses.
How naked it feels to not know what comes after the ending.
How lonely it can be to reinvent when everyone else thinks they already know who you are.
But here’s what the starting over theory teaches:
Your biggest breakthroughs don’t happen in the chapter that’s working.
They happen in the space between the collapse and the rebirth…
The blank page, the quiet room, the moment your ego whispers “Don’t do it” and your intuition says “Go.”
Starting over is spiritual.
It’s identity alchemy.
It’s dismantling the version of you who survived
So you can become the version of you who thrives.
So if you’re in your starting over era —
If something ended, if a door closed, if you’re grieving a life you thought you wanted —
I hope you remember this:
Your new life needs space.
Your new timeline needs permission.
Your new identity needs you to believe S/he exists before anyone else recognizes Her/Thim.
and S/he does exist.
S/he’s already walking toward you...
07/20/2026
On the second day of my new track, Tension (Don't Crash 242 Remix) being listed on the Soundclick charts, I am at number #5 on the House sub-genre and #42 On the Electronic Music genre. And while looking at the charts surprisingly My remix of The Cures The Exploding Boy ('Siva's Lush Mix) that I released in August of 2017, is currently #5 on the Post-Punk charts. At one point it peaked at number #2.
If you haven't heard Tension (Don't Crash 242 Remix), please go to the link on Soundclick and help me move up the charts. If you are a fan of industrial and house music and especially Front 242 this track is an ode to Front 242 and the dance productions of 80s and 90s industrial music as a whole. https://soundclick.com/song/15301712
07/19/2026
A new track called, Tension (Don't Crash 242 Remix) by the dead beats
This is one for the old crew and the new. Those who haunted the old dance floors and still tune a new ear for the freshest choons. We will stay young if we keep dancin'!
Tension (Don't Crash 242 Remix) Released online July 18th, 2026
Falling...
03/24/2026
Dude, What Were You Like In The 90s?
Or, Where Were You In The 90s?
This is my companion video to the Mix I released last week. This is a collection of strictly Central Florida videos of Raves, Club Events, Parties, Documentaries, and Surprises from the 90s. Look closely and you may see yourself. This is Our Tribe, This is who We were in the 90s. I Love You, All. I hope you enjoy watching this as much as I enjoyed putting it together.
*I recognize the videos are not my work. They were collected mostly from YouTube. If you find a video in this collection that is yours, let me know and I will give you credit.
1. Intro
2. Cozmos Rave Orlando Convention Center Dec 16th, 1994
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4. Passion 3 Edge Orlando Dec 9th, 1995
5. The Club @ Firestone 1994
6. Underground Zero: A Look Inside Central Florida's House Culture Documentary (1995) produced by DJ Trans
7. Sasha & Digweed November 30th, 1996 @ Simon's Gainesville
8. Rebirth Live @ Hyperspace 3 Rave Central Florida Fairgrounds Orlando Dec 30th, 1995
9. Red Seal Live @ Hyperspace 3 Rave Central Florida Fairgrounds Orlando Dec 31st, 1995
10. DJ Sasha Reunion 1994 @ Beacham Theater Orlando July 3rd, 1994
11. Cosmo Rave repeat
12. Sasha & Digweed repeat
13. TechnoBabble
14. Outro
Audio Mix: https://www.house-mixes.com/thedeadbeats/the-dead-beats-present-where-were-you-in-the-90s-by-siva-de-ferrera
Dude, What Were You Like In The 90s? - Or Where Were You In The 90s? Dude, What Were You Like In The 90s?Or, Where Were You In The 90s?This is my companion video to the Mix I released last week. This is a collection of strictl...
03/19/2026
Where were you in the 90s... Is my answer to, "What were you like in the 90s" and also inspired by the bootleg live album by the S*x Pistols "Where were You in 1977?". A Nearly three hour Continuous DJ mix of some of Central Florida's greatest and most well known vibes. This is my biographical soundtrack from 1991-1997 in the obtuse triangle of my haunts between Tampa, Orlando, Gainesville, Melbourne, Cocoa Beach, and the Space Coast. This was intended to be a video with collected classic videos of well known documentaries, Rave and Club events and extra goodies scattered across the interwebs, specifically of the Central Florida Tribe. That video is still rendering, so I decided to go ahead and release my audio mix first. Enjoy!
Here's the track list:
1. Beers, Steers Qu**rs - Revolting C***s
2. Let's Get Physical (Banned Original Mix) - Revolting C***s
3. Fear The Mindkiller (Mix With Bats) - Fear Factory
4. Maximizor - T99
5. Devastating Beat Creator (Dub Echo) - Nightmare
6. Radio Babylon - Meat Beat Manifesto
7. Acid Again - Meat Beat Manifesto
8. Higher State Of Consciousness (Tweekin Acid Funk) - Josh Wink
9. Faster (Dub Mix) - M.S.P.
10. Nu Jack (Original Old School Mix) - The Cotton Club
11. It's Like That [Drop The Break] - Jason Nevins
12. Break Da '80's (Sambal Badjak Mix) - Armand Van Helden
13. Rock the Discotek (Playboys Bass Dub) - Ramp
14. Bells Of Ny (house 2 House Mix) - Slo Moshun
15. La Luna - The Ethics
16. 83 Beats (Demo) - The Dead Beats
17. Girls & Boys [Mo Head Mix] - The Hed Boys
18. Feel It! - Coco, Steel & Lovebomb
19. Been A Long Time (Rio's Pride Mix) - The Fog
20. Give It Up (Batucada Refrescante) - The Good Men
21. Spin Spin Sugar (Armand's Dark Garage Mix) - Sneaker Pimps
22. Sugar Is Sweeter (Armand Van Helden's Drum 'n' Bass Mix) - CJ Bolland
23. Hyperballad (Over The Edge Mix) - Björk
24. One of Us (Janes Addiction Remix) - Sotero & David Christophere
25. O.B.E. Out of Body Experience (Original) - Rabbit In The Moon
26. It's So Good (Boys Mix) - Power Circle
27. Right in the Night (Fall in Love with Music) - Jam & Spoon
28. Spanish Fly (Dharma Bums Mix) - The Delorme
29. The Real Thing (12" Dance Mix) - Tony Di Bart
30. Acperience 1 - Hardfloor
31. Wisdom To The Wise (Red 2) (Robert Hood Remix) - Dave Clarke
32. Wisdom To The Wise (Red2) (Original 12in Mix) - Dave Clarke
33. Ghetto Technics 1 - Frankie Bones
34. Columbo's Got Sloweye - Hawke
35. Born Under a Lucky Star - Hawke
36. Holler! - Dubtribe Sound System
The Dead Beats Present: Where Were You In The 90s by 'Siva De Ferrera by thedeadbeats Where were you in the 90s... Is my answer to, "What were you like in the 90s" and also inspired by the bootleg live album by the S*x Pistols "Where were You in
01/30/2026
Never forget, These Remains... sleep like a shadow in your mind. The darkness craves the solace of unspoken and hidden truth. The lies living on the outside cannot touch anamnesis. They seeth and caress the body. It is fiction and myth that binds the mortal flesh in pleasure.
MLWTTKK Unofficial: These Remains, Universal Blackness, Heresy, Confessions of a Knife (Theme Pt. 1) The latest unofficial MLWTTKK video. The scenes are from the movie Twins of Evil (1971) which is based on the Gothic novella "Carmilla" by Joseph Sheridan Le...
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