ADHDemon

It may take a little but to get back into the swing of things with the holiday season coming in hot! Been busy going to the happiest place on earth- and smelling those smelly smells. If you know- you know! Happy Halloween season!

Hahahaha - I realized with my recent comic upload- I'm at exactly 69 posts on instagram. This makes me happier than I know how to express. If you feel so inclined, make sure you check it out before i post the next comic. Could be anywhere from 1 day to 3 months. You never know with me.

New opportunities in life can lead to all kinds of exciting new experiences! It also throws wrenches into your work flows.
I've been in the process of moving, setting up my computer to work remote, enjoying halloween festivities, and a bunch of other good, potentially positive things... BUT this has basically made any hobbies even remotely associated with "work/creativity" impossible to do.

Trying to get back into the grind of things though. I've been itching to make things again. How do you keep to task when your life is in upheaval?

I've been really changing up my work space recently and this has kind of thrown a wrench into my workflow.
Any aspect of life I should comment on with my next comic? help me brain storm lol

Woah. I keep getting notifications that people are liking and following! I haven't made a new post in a minute- I know. But hopefully I can get something new made soon.

I wrote a lot for some reason. Guess i had thoughts.

I think this one can speak for itself? For those of you who dont know- i kind of also have aspirations of indie game development, and this is a bit of a sneak peak into my soon to be released next devlog entry onto my channel. Imposter syndrome is for sure not something fun to deal with. When you feel like you are never living up to your potential, even when you DO accomplish something, it is a random fluke- the exception not the rule- it is very easy to believe you dont belong where you are... Even if you work tirelessly to get to that position. No amount of sleepless nights working from sun up to sun down has ever made me feel like it was my effort to get me to where i am. It was always the luck of the draw/privilege/ playing the part so well no one can see that i sneak under the radar. And when you dont meet the production goals you set for yourself; from my view that is never the accident- thats the true level of my talent and skills. Falling short is almost a validating action. "See? I told you i wasnt as good as you claimed". There is no such thing as a "bad day". There are only normal days, surprisingly good days, and days where I lie to the world and even myself and do more than I actually can. If all of this ranting makes no sense- I'm happy for you. For all of those who read this and feel "seen"- we have to move our baselines. Your "good days"- despite what you think- thats actually the real you. The amazing days? Thats actually just a good day. And when you feel like you are at your consistent best- failing? Well thats what most people would call a BAD DAY. You are better than you think. Dont give up on yourself.

Getting back to the grind also means looking back at some of the things you started but never finished. The question for me always comes up- do you continue what you started, or do you accept some things will never get finished and move on to something else? How do you decide WHAT things are worth cutting?
At what point does one cut their losses and leave the game (the sunk cost fallacy)?
Most of us are struggling with sunken costs- but im always told if i just stick to something i could actually be pretty good... So is it still the same thing if you leave something and then come back to it at a later time-when it has metaphorically gathered dust and has now had time to ferment? But if you invest all your time into old ideas, will there ever come a time for the new ideas? Or do those too start to gather dust and become old ideas before you can ever address them?

Sorry its been so long. It became a bit difficult to create comics about my struggles and experiences with ADHD, after being told by a doctor I don't have ADHD. I'm thinking about returning to this project though, since i think some people were gaining some value from what i was making.

So is the demon pure ADHD? Maybe not. But that doesn't change the existence of the inner demons, no matter their names. Perhaps labels DON'T matter so much...

Also- since I've been gone i cut my hair and turned 30. Yay older age.

Why is the productivity always gone?

For the 3 of you who read this- what do you think of the sketchy lines of these last 2 comics versus the previous "clean" digital lines?

been awhile since I tried to make another one of these.

I was trying to lose weight BEFORE lockdown. This whole being inside endlessly for 3 months for sure didnt help things.

I think im going to turn this little guy into a lavender candle and burn him whenever i need to focus. Take that demon.