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As I sit here an emotional mess, I am all over the place with my thoughts and of them all the main idea is my sobriety. This is scary for me , not because I dont want it but because I dont know if I'm strong enough to do it. One day at a time they say, but it may be a day but it feels like an eternity. [ 46 more words ]

Rebirth and Hope’s for a future As I sit here an emotional mess, I am all over the place with my thoughts and of them all the main idea is my sobriety. This is scary for me , not because I dont want it but because I dont know if …

P So we have e entered the 2dn month of this brand new year and in still alive. Yay I dont mean to sound grim but the things we do when we let loose are pretty out there . Who knows maybe its just me lol. It's crazy because I never thought I would have so many issues staying sober. Now I'm not crazy out of control and handle my business as needed but damn. [ 66 more words ]

2 down, and a lifetime to go!!!! P So we have e entered the 2dn month of this brand new year and in still alive. Yay I dont mean to sound grim but the things we do when we let loose are pretty out there . Who knows maybe its jus…

To everyone that has supported my blog, thank you. I will be posting very soon. Be patient and stay sober

I know right now is the time to be festive and happy, thankful and proud but Im just not there. Now before I go into what is going on with my life I just want everyone to know that my problems compared to the worlds problems and others are probably minor at bestr but they are mine and they are weighinf so heavy on me. [ 274 more words ]

Broken now destroyed:Tears and Fears I know right now is the time to be festive and happy, thankful and proud but Im just not there. Now before I go into what is going on with my life I just want everyone to know that my problems comp…

I was going to go into this without any research at all, but as I stayed staring at the blank page I realized how ignorant that would be. So I did a little bit of research to find that gene's do play apart in addiction. Now don't get my words twisted, I'm not saying we can blame it all on gene's. [ 150 more words ]

Is there such a thing as the addiction gene? I was going to go into this without any research at all, but as I stayed staring at the blank page I realized how ignorant that would be. So I did a little bit of research to find that gene’s…

As the year quickly and with no permission, comes to an end I am filled with emotions. As per accomplishments there have been many, but they came with a price that at one point I never thought I could or would pay. It honestly took rock bottom, or at least what my version of rock bottom was in order to see what I had known but was to afraid to admit to myself. [ 268 more words ]

The Road so Far? As the year quickly and with no permission, comes to an end I am filled with emotions. As per accomplishments there have been many, but they came with a price that at one point I never thought I co…

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First and Foremost, Happy Thanksgiving to one and all. Going into this holiday season really gets you thinking. Love one's departed what has only been what feels like yesterday, and loved ones departed from when has been some time but who will always be remembered and never forgotten. My sobriety has always been important to me, but when it comes to staying sober it's always been a battle. [ 50 more words ]

Expectations are overrated First and Foremost, Happy Thanksgiving to one and all. Going into this holiday season really gets you thinking. Love one’s departed what has only been what feels like yesterday, and loved one…

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Its weird, when your life is quiet and bored. What is stirring deep down inside

So I look back and try to piece together what started me on such a self destructive path. When things are M going so well I just have to find a way to make things a little more difficult, or as I call it interesting. We think that we have found a way to be an addict, and to not let it hurt us. [ 104 more words ]

Addiction: Destructive. You think your in control? So I look back and try to piece together what started me on such a self destructive path. When things are M going so well I just have to find a way to make things a little more difficult, or as I c…