Sun Bent Studio

I’m upgrading my office. Which means it’s an actual disaster zone right now. Footpaths through piles, things falling over. Scratches in the floor.

But I’ve been feeling this change for a while.

I’ve been … stagnant … not stuck, but, maybe more in a holding pattern? Healing.

It’s been a year and 1/2 since my hysterectomy.
I prepared myself as much as I could. But there’s never any way to know what the future might hold. I knew there would be changes. I knew there would be unknowns. And I (thankfully) committed myself to one year without any medicinal intervention to allow my body the time to sort itself out. Once I got to one year I thought, what’s one more month? And one more after that? And slowly I felt the light returning again.

I went through a major hormonal shift after my surgery. One that was expected and anticipated. But was still a challenge to go through. Instead of running for a prescription to make it all go away. I allowed myself to wade into the pool of awareness and just let happen what needed to.

My family and I have been grieving the loss of my aunt this year. All the firsts coming, one emotional blow after another. Tears come at will with no notice. Grieving is such a complicated process. A notion about grieving that has always stuck with me goes something like “time doesn’t heal anything, you just get better at dealing with the pain”.

Sometimes, our expectations of healing can be so skewed. Distorted. I’ve learned a lot about myself in this time and made some adjustments, searching for balance. Actually LISTENING to what my body has been trying to communicate with me.

Big changes are happening in my life right now. I am always amazed when things happen right when we’re ready for them, even if it doesn’t feel that way until the second they happen.

I’m ready to close out this cycle of loss, healing, recovery and start discovering again. Exploring. Experimenting.

I have ideas and I’m energized.

I hope so very much that all you rainbow lovers out there can also find the spark that propels you forward.

Keep listening. The answers are always inside of us. Just waiting to be heard.

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Get ready rainbows lovers! All of my current inventory in the shop will be on sale this Friday and Saturday! Sale starts at 12:01am Friday morning! Happy Rainbow hunting yall! 🌈😍🤍

Find them Saturday 11/8 from 9a-12p!

Find me here this week! North Market Bridge Park Nigh Market. I will be set up this Thursday evening from 6-9 right outside the North Market. See you there!

I lost a part of me yesterday. My Aunt Becky ascended last night, surrounded by love and support.

What she means to me and has meant to me is hard to put into words.

She was so big. She taught me it was ok to be big. Big in love, big in life, big in kindness and generosity. To live fearlessly and take chances. To have fun and to dress in style. To drive fast with the top down and always listen to good music. To prepare a delicious meal and welcome the ones you love. To be adventurous. She showed me so much, and shared so much.

I feel so utterly blessed to have been brought into this life into the circle of women that have been centered around me. Because they are the most MAGNIFICENT creatures I have ever known. They have taught me what the true meaning of grace is. And how to live a life authentically.

Loosing a member of this circle is an experience I can’t process yet, but I know the absence of her will be felt for the rest of my days.

Thank you for everything Bucky boo. What a day, a year, a life it has been.
I love you with all of my heart.