Jason Smith - Relational Intelligence

Sometimes you just need Support. Presence. Understanding. You don’t need someone to figure it out. Just love you enough to be in the same room at the same time. It’s uncomfortable, uncertain, and exactly what’s needed.

I’ve had a bunch of imaging. They are attributing this to a neck injury (On-Going Pain) I got on duty. Except it’s out of control now.

I know he’s working on me now. This is preparation. The lesson is no matter how hard it gets we always have more to give. We find it in him, within ourselves, and the company we keep. I’ve allowed myself to be broken before and I will not allow it now.

In two weeks my exercise capacity went 5 miles + a day with 30 lbs on my back and daily lifting to runaway hear rate & BP spikes just walking to the bathroom. Life is crazy sometimes.

12 days. It’s been 12 days and two ER visits and one admission since my last walk. Multiple meds. No answers. Waiting on appointments and labs. I’m hopeful but the unknown and the lack of exertion capacity is a tough one for me.

I will do whatever it takes to get healthy again. I was handed an illness that is unknown and unexpected. This is a part of life. This is why we create relationship equity and learn to endure our own pain to show others they aren’t alone and what is possible.

Sometimes things get thrown at you that remind you just how human you are. Keep Going.

🎉 Facebook recognized me as a top rising creator this week!

It's amazing how quickly the tide can turn in your life and in my mind all of this has been for my good. Something good will come from all of this because it has to but right now that version of me seems really far away and like the experience I'm having now in this moment is becoming a new normal but I will not allow my mind to go there. This week has been tough to go from physically active to only being able to stand a few minutes before my heart rate and bp spike again. The answer will come, more tests to come, but for now we wait and pray for an easy answer and quick fix.

BP and Heart Rate are still not cooperating. Makes you wonder how much your body can take. Down to 179lbs. And can only walk as far as the bathroom and back.

Yet, if it wasn’t for the destabilization of the BP/HR I could easily get back to normal life.

No answers. More tests in June. Just trying to make it to those appointments.

I’m sharing this to let you know that we all have life challenges and even in difficult times we must seek out gratitude and connection.