Dead Since 21

Two things can be true at the same time. I’m OK and I’m horrifically not OK. Exactly!!!

When can I exhaust the totality of possibilities within the environment of the absolute last relationship I will ever want or need.!!? ~ Eric Carver ~ April 17th 2023.

The absolute complication of something seriously simple.
I never believed in the barren lower world of fire and brimstone nor the guy in the red suit complete with horns and pitchfork aptly termed, Hell. I simply believe we are all born in Hell with an absolute distinct purpose given by god. Within the existence in this Hell lies the attempt to build your personal peace and space devoid of the residual conflict and chaos. Upon completion of accompanying said purpose it is then that you find the upper paradise. ~ Eric Carver - March 6th 2023.

By the age of ten, I firmly realized that the more friends I had the more stress I had. The threat of betrayal loomed large. You absolutely cannot be betrayed by a stranger. Betrayal always comes from a known source, a friend. ~ Eric Carver - March 6th 2023.

The meaning of the title derives from my 7th year alive seeing friends die seeing people I looked up to die to the point of being seriously in touch with my mortality, hence at the age of 7, I truly thought 21, was old age, my life expectancy, a serious reach. I must be dead since 21!!!

Eric Carver ~ February 27th 2023.