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Excuse me if I don't settle for less
Failing to remember me when you've a mess
You were in my memory in fine detail
But I guess all those moments shall no longer prevail

I understand that valuing people is tiring
But that not what I was seeking
I won't place myself to people who don't notice me when I made the distance
It's not about being valued, but to be assured that someone acknowledges my existence

Remember when I told I fell for you deeply? I was ready to be caught and show you my longing and passionate affection. Yet I fell, I fell into the darkness landing unto unknown surface with my bones broken. Know that I wasn't scarred and there were no wounds yet I was filled with bruises. And the fraction of my bones pierced my lungs where breathing the air filled by your presence makes me pant into the breathless atmosphere of uncertainty. And as I breathed, I can hear the shards piercing my heart as if they were needles that can make me bleed out internally where all I can do is die from my own vanity. Yes I loved you sincerely but with the way I am broken it took me time to crawl out from the place I risked falling for. Yes my bones have healed and I can stand for my own worth. Yes, I can finally breathe free from asthma of hoping that I'll be loved. Yes, my heart finally beats back to its rythm however my blood had already spilled and it was sad for no one was there to care. I'm now walking forward, to a life I had no choice but to move on but a faint of bitterness crushes me when I look back at how I wished to see that I'd be holding your hand as you walk with me in the adventure of my life's journey.

"All I Seek Now is Rejection"

I wanted to unravel your mystery
And love you throughout my life's history
Your riddles were something I wanted solving
In every puzzle your pieces are mesmerizing

If you were flames then I'd love to burn
If you're behind me I'd smile and turn
Excited to see your eyes
Along with your smile my heart surely flies

I do not know if I deserve certainty
I'm taking a risk, you who I find lovely
Even when I am lost I'd surely find you
From the beginning, I know how to find myself by your side because I knew
I knew from the start that I love you

But I'll distance myself slowly
Perhaps you don't feel the same for me
Just know that it's alright
Say the words and I won't fight
My feelings that are a constant rage
Of do's and don'ts in every page
In this story that my decisions create
If this was not written by destiny or fate
Then the possibility of "us" is gone
And I'd gladly accept it, and life goes on

"Unrealized Euphoria"

Let's go back to the time
When being young was so sublime
Where our worries were innocent
Free from the world's cruelty and torment

The time when our minds were full of fantasies
Of heroes and magical friends, adventures on the willow trees
Pouting from being told to nap
But sleeping soundly on our mother's lap

We call them nostalgia
But really it was unrealized euphoria
Unconfined from the truth of reality
That living is full of pain and of disparity

Gleamingly Celestial

If I were to say I love you as my strength
Then loving you would be my weakness
My silent words can't help but scream in actions
To me a promise is worth nothing when they are said
But actions that scream I love you are also worthless when you're illiterate to it

But here I am silent like nothingness
Holding the screams that I want to show
A love that does more and say less
To no condition but seeing me love you is all the satisfaction

So if you allow me, I will love you
Like my secrets, I keep them because I am true
I want to be warmth when your skies are blue
Comfort you in my arms when you're filled by sadness
I will be sane when you're surrounded by madness
In my embrace your hair I will caress
You will hear my heart beating
And my breath while I'm breathing
To let you know that there is something worth living
When I am here with you when it's hard to be anything
I may not give you everything
But remember this when you feel like nothing
I've always been proud of you to see you striving
Whenever it was hard to live and you were just surviving
There's no other star my dear, you were the brightest one that's thriving.

Breath of Fallacy

You say you love me
But you lie like breathing
Even when I know you do it effortlessly
But I kept silent because you're my everything

I love you that's why I'm in pain
And held my tears from coming out
I simply waited until the skies start to rain
But then my eyes are still a burning drought

I fell for you so deep
But there was no one to catch me
In my fall I can't help but weep
Because in this voidful pit, darkness is all I can see

There is no light
That would be comfort
No longer bright
As you are a person of contort

And so I am lost
No one to hold around
It wasn't worth the cost
Sabotaging thoughts surround

And so I slowly become crazy
No longer wanting to continue as I am lazy
I am here bleeding yet no one can see

Me in pain and agony

(Photo not mine, credits to the rightful owner)

~Hypocritical ~

Hope is a cage that traps us in uncertainty
But maybe hope is a reason to live faithfully?
That's why people cling to it and believe
Even when they know there's nothing they could receive

Does hope conclude to despair?
When we face the reality we cannot bear
To know the truths that leave us frightened
Because of hope, burdens are lightened

When can we truly find an end?
Clinging to the hopes that we defend?
Is it when life show's us cruelty?
Or misfortune bringing up nothing but tragedy?

Because maybe there is light to the darkness within
Every person lurking beneath their skin
Maybe that hope brings salvation
To our cries heard by no one
And maybe we hope because there is a direction
In life that we wish to live willingly
To the future we wish to see
To the person we wish to be
To the love we long so desire
Hope gives us meaning to witness what could transpire

Ps. Photo not mine credits to the rightful owner

How many poems must I make?
To be worth a risk a person could take?
How much more can I give?
When in myself I cannot forgive

How much more can I sacrifice
When everything I've offered won't suffice?
For a love that I wish she knew
That all there is, are sincere and true

How much can I love?
When I'm down below admiring what's above
Within the darkness I wept
Because of the feeling that I deserve not to be kept

For how long must I hold on?
When even I am still awake at dawn
Trying my best figuring out how to move on
You know my queen, for you I'd be a pawn

And the love never returned
With my passionate fire, I am burned
How far did I go to be this lost
With nothing left, as I offered everything as a cost

To Love You

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