She Tells

Glory to God in the highest. Amen! ❤️

I have removed my own chair from that table a long time ago. I closed the curtain where other people's story might slip away and reach me. I am done with that phase. I don't like hearing some gossips nor judgements about other's whereabouts. I am no longer there to receive such side stories. I'm growing up, and that's the best part of my growth. Where peace can be felt and childishness vanished.

It's the peace that comes after not knowing anything about anyone. It's the kind of peace that I am willing to bargain with anything. Truly that when you have lesser connection, the more peace you will acquire. It's best to just read and analyze your own story, than to receive plot twists from anyone.

This is the best lesson I've ever learned, that in order for me to have some silence I must refrain other's noises.

—Writes Yna,

"Loneliness is never more cruel than when it is felt in company." - Ralph Waldo Emerson.

That hits hard. We've all been there – surrounded by people, yet feeling totally disconnected. This kind of loneliness stems from a lack of genuine connection, a feeling of being unseen, unheard, or misunderstood, even when surrounded by others. It's about the quality of your interactions, not the quantity. You can be in a crowded room and feel utterly isolated if those around you don't resonate with you on a deeper level. But what if we flipped the script? Instead of clinging to superficial interactions just to avoid being alone, what if we shifted our perspective? What if, instead of fearing solitude, we actively embraced it? It turns out, choosing to be alone can be incredibly rewarding.

We live in a world that's obsessed with being busy. Always gotta be doing something, always gotta be with someone. But honestly? Sometimes, all that noise just leaves you feeling drained. That's where the magic of solitude comes in. It's not about becoming a hermit or anything dramatic like that. It's just about realizing there's a huge difference between being lonely and choosing to be alone.

Loneliness sucks – it's that gnawing feeling of wanting connection but not getting it. Solitude? That's a choice. It's like hitting the reset button on your brain. Think of it this way: when you're by yourself, you can finally ditch the act. No more pretending, no more trying to impress. You can just be… you. It's in those quiet moments that you can actually hear yourself think, figure out what you're feeling, and let your creative juices flow.

You begin to understand that your time and energy are gifts. You're not going to give them away to just anyone. Solitude becomes a space for you to recharge, to reconnect with yourself. And from that place of self-knowing, you choose to share your life with those who truly matter. It's about living with intention, guided by your inner compass.

Flying solo isn't about being alone; it's about coming home to yourself.

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We Are Human Angels
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Awakening the Human Spirit

You can fill a library with everything you have read, decorate your desk with diplomas, and speak with elegant words that few understand. But if you have not learned to doubt your certainties, if you have not looked beyond your own ideas, you are still walking in the dark with a broken headlight.

Intelligence is not a suit you can wear for every conversation, nor a collection of titles that grant you reason by decree. Some know the stars by name but have never felt the vertigo of truly looking at them. Others have read about the seas but have never felt the waves touch their feet.

Knowing is not enough. The world is full of brilliant minds with hearts of stone and cultured voices that cannot truly hear. For knowledge without conscience is just noise, and education without humility is nothing but a disguise.

When you disappoint and hurt people with a good heart, you may not notice an immediate reaction.
They won’t raise their voice, they won’t accuse you, and they won’t cause a scene.
They will carry their pain in silence, remaining warm and compassionate, just as you’ve always known them.
But deep down in their hearts, something changes.
They begin to walk away, not out of revenge, but out of a clear acceptance of reality.
Little by little, they create distance, leaving without dramatic goodbyes and without looking back.
These are the people who trusted you completely and valued you sincerely.
When their trust is betrayed, it doesn’t crumble suddenly; it gradually fades, leaving them with no choice but to protect their inner peace.
They will remain kind and compassionate, but they will never look at you the same way again.
Remember, the loss of a good soul is an irreversible loss.
Appreciate them while they're there, because once they’re gone, they’re not coming back.

Mhiz Stelly

My boundaries are in place for a reason, acknowledging them is acknowledging my worth.

✌️

Have you ever healed so much that you needed to apologize to yourself for what you used to tolerate? That part of growth hits differently.

Read that again..

"50 Things to Realize Before It’s Too Late." by Manoj Chenthamarakshan

1. Life is short
Life is fleeting, and we never know what's around the corner. Make the most of the time you have, and prioritize what truly matters.

2. Happiness is a choice
Happiness is a mindset and a choice. We can choose to focus on the positive, practice gratitude, and cultivate happiness in our daily lives.

3. You can't please everyone.
It's impossible to please everyone, and trying to do so can lead to burnout and resentment. Focus on pleasing yourself and doing what's right for you.

4. Forgive yourself and others.
Forgiveness is a powerful tool for healing and moving forward. Let go of grudges, forgive yourself and others, and focus on the present moment.

5. Time is a limited resource
Time is a finite resource, and we should use it wisely. Prioritize what's truly important, and make the most of the time you have.

6. Your health is your wealth.
Our health is our most valuable asset. Take care of your physical, mental, and emotional health, and prioritize self-care.

7. You are responsible for your life
We are responsible for our own lives, choices, and actions. Take ownership of your decisions, and don't blame others for your circumstances.

8. Don't compare yourself to others.
Comparing ourselves to others can lead to feelings of inadequacy, low self-esteem, and dissatisfaction. Focus on your own journey, and celebrate your unique strengths and accomplishments.

9. Focus on the present moment
The present moment is all we truly have. Focus on the here and now, and let go of worries about the past or future.

10. You can't change the past
The past is gone, and we can't change what's already happened. Instead, focus on the present moment, and use the lessons of the past to inform your decisions and actions.

11. Money can't buy happiness
While money can provide basic needs and comforts, it can't buy true happiness. Focus on building meaningful relationships, pursuing your passions, and cultivating a sense of purpose and fulfillment.

12. Relationships are key to happiness
Nurturing positive relationships with family, friends, and community can bring joy, support, and a sense of belonging. Invest in the people who matter most to you.

13. You are unique
Each of us has our own unique strengths, talents, and experiences. Celebrate what makes you different, and don't try to conform to someone else's standards or expectations.

14. Don't be afraid to take risks
Taking calculated risks can help us grow, learn, and achieve our goals. Don't be afraid to step outside your comfort zone and take the leap.

15. Failure is a stepping stone to success
Failure is an inevitable part of the learning and growth process. Instead of fearing failure, view it as an opportunity to learn, adapt, and try again.

16. You can't control everything
We can't control everything that happens in life, but we can control how we respond to challenges and setbacks. Focus on what you can control, and let go of what you can't.

17. Practice gratitude
Cultivating gratitude can help us appreciate what we have, rather than focusing on what's lacking. Make gratitude a daily practice, and watch your perspective shift.

18. Don't sweat the small stuff
Don't let minor setbacks or annoyances ruin your day. Keep things in perspective, and focus on what truly matters.

19. You are stronger than you think
We often underestimate our own strength and resilience. Remember that you've overcome challenges before, and you can do so again.

20. Life is unpredictable
Life is full of unexpected twists and turns. Instead of resisting change, learn to adapt and flow with the ups and downs of life.

21. You can't change others
We can't change others, but we can change how we respond to them. Focus on your own actions and reactions, rather than trying to control others.

22. Focus on what you can control
Instead of wasting energy on things outside of your control, focus on what you can control – your own thoughts, actions, and reactions.

23. Don't be too hard on yourself
We all make mistakes and have flaws. Instead of beating yourself up over imperfections, practice self-compassion and treat yourself with kindness.

24. Everyone makes mistakes
Mistakes are an inevitable part of the learning and growth process. Instead of fearing mistakes, view them as opportunities to learn and improve.

25. You can learn from anyone
Everyone has something valuable to teach us, regardless of their background, experience, or status. Stay humble, and be open to learning from others.

26. Don't judge others
Judging others can lead to misunderstandings, hurt feelings, and damaged relationships. Instead, try to understand and empathize with others.

27. You are not alone
We all go through challenges and struggles. Remember that you're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.

28. Life is a journey, not a destination
Instead of focusing on the end goal, enjoy the process of getting there. Life is full of ups and downs, twists and turns – and it's all part of the journey.

29. You can always start again
No matter what mistakes you've made or how far off track you've gotten, you can always start again. Every day is a new opportunity to begin anew.

30. Don't give up on your dreams
Your dreams are what make life worth living. Don't give up on them, even when the going gets tough. Keep pushing forward, and know that every step you take brings you closer to your goals.

31. You are capable of growth
We all have the capacity for growth and change. Believe in yourself and your abilities, and know that you can learn and adapt throughout your life.

32. Don't be afraid to ask for help
We all need help sometimes. Don't be afraid to ask for it – whether it's from a friend, family member, or professional.

33. You can't pour from an empty cup
Take care of yourself first. Make sure you're getting enough rest, eating well, and engaging in activities that nourish your mind, body, and soul.

34. Take care of yourself
Your physical, mental, and emotional health is crucial to your overall well-being. Make self-care a priority, and take care of yourself in all aspects of your life.

35. You are worthy of love and respect
You deserve to be loved and respected – by yourself and others. Practice self-love and self-respect, and surround yourself with people who treat you with kindness and compassion.

36. Don't let fear hold you back
Fear can be a major obstacle to growth and progress. Don't let fear hold you back – face it head-on, and take steps to overcome it.

37. You can't control how others perceive you
You can't control how others think or feel about you. Instead of trying to change others' perceptions, focus on being your authentic self.

38. Focus on your own path
Instead of comparing yourself to others or trying to follow in their footsteps, focus on your own path. What are your goals and aspirations? What steps can you take to achieve them?

39. You are enough
You are enough, just as you are. Don't compare yourself to others or try to measure up to someone else's standards. You are unique, and your worth and value come from within.

40. Don't compare your behind-the-scenes to someone else's highlight reel
Social media often presents a curated version of others' lives. Don't compare your own behind-the-scenes moments to someone else's highlight reel. Instead, focus on your own journey and celebrate your own successes.

41. You can learn from your mistakes
Mistakes are an inevitable part of the learning and growth process. Instead of beating yourself up over mistakes, try to learn from them. What can you do differently next time?

42. Don't be too proud to apologize
Apologizing can be difficult, but it's an important part of building and maintaining healthy relationships. Don't be too proud to apologize when you've made a mistake.

43. You can't change your past, but you can shape your future
While we can't change what's already happened, we can learn from our past experiences and use that knowledge to shape our future.

44. Life is a series of ups and downs
Life is full of twists and turns, ups and downs. Instead of getting too caught up in the highs or lows, try to find a sense of balance and perspective.

45. You are resilient
You've survived every difficult moment in your life so far, and you can continue to do so. Remember that you are resilient, and that you have the strength to overcome any obstacle.

46. Don't take yourself too seriously
Life is too short to take yourself too seriously. Learn to laugh at yourself, and don't be afraid to be a little silly sometimes.

47. You can always find the lesson in a difficult experience
Even in the toughest moments, there is always something to be learned. Try to find the lesson or silver lining in every difficult experience.

48. Don't let others define your self-worth
Your self-worth and value come from within. Don't let others define your self-worth or dictate your sense of identity.

49. You are capable of achieving your goals
Believe in yourself and your abilities. You are capable of achieving great things, and your goals are within reach.

50. Life is precious, make the most of it
Life is a gift, and every moment is precious. Make the most of the time you have, and live each day to the fullest.

I hope these 50 points have inspired you to reflect on your life, priorities, and values.

Remember to always focus on what truly matters, cultivate gratitude, and strive to become the best version of yourself.

These lessons emphasize mindfulness, gratitude, and intentional living, urging readers to focus on what truly matters before it’s too late.

‘You’re so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”—Ernest Hemingway
When someone calls you strong it can sound like a compliment, but feel like a curse. I’ve been called a trooper. A powerhouse. A champ. One family member refers to me as a spiritual Timex (Remember those ads? “Takes a licking and keeps on ticking.") I’m so persistently encouraging of bravery and chance-taking and wonder hunting that people don’t hear the sniffles, the long sighs, the jagged ugly cries. They think I live a charmed life, moving from happiness to happiness, success to success.

So wrong.

Even though I share regularly online and in person about my vulnerability, anxiety and struggles with suffering, that part of me is often overlooked or misunderstood. It’s quieter than all the daring adventure, but it’s there. And when I do share, people often consider me a lighthouse. I’m the resilient one. The capable one. Choosing to focus on the light. Just because someone runs a bold race doesn’t mean they don’t walk long acres of doubt.

When one chooses bravery, it doest mean they don’t struggle with fear, anxiety, overwhelm. Intense self-reliance and resilience can be the painful result of emotional abandonment or neglect. When no one ever shows up to help or support, nurture or relieve, one must make a choice what to become. I became a lighthouse.

I cry easily and readily in front of people, though if you are the cause of my hurt, I’ll likely downplay it so as not to make you feel bad. I’m no longer proud of this. No longer think of my ability to mask pain as a badge of honor. It’s a trauma response. Most certainly learned early as a means of keeping myself valuable to the the few people raising me—especially because they did not share their tears, though some could easily share their anger with a belt or a paddle.

This silent shame, it claimed me early.

I’m five years old. My pet rabbit Bun Bun has died. I sneak off to my room. Even with the door shut I don’t feel safe to cry. I open the closet door and bury myself back behind the dresses and coats. There, in the pitch black darkness, the sleeves of my favorite sweater catch my tears and muffle my sobs.

It’s my 15th birthday. Friends have gathered. There’s a pink cake with frosty roses. A surprise guest—a girl I haven’t seen in years —comes into the living room and we both squeal and run to hug each other. Her shoulder snags my pinky fingernail til it bends all the way back. The pain shrieks through me instantly. I announce to the room, “I gotta pee” and rush to the bathroom to cry. Sob. The water running over my finger ’til there is no blood and no more blotchy proof on my face that I have been wounded.

I’m 19 and the guy I’m dating is on my childhood bed. It’s midafternoon and my parents aren’t home. I’m still a virgin, and as a recovering Baptist, very conservative anything more than making out. When kissing turns to bl***ob, my first, I’m caught between wonder and terror. It’s over so fast. There is no talking. But there’s also no reach for me, towards exploration or pleasure or release, to bring me into the same euphoric state that he’s in. As the seconds tick by I realize I’ve been seduced into a giveaway rather than a mutual exchange. I love this guy, so it hurts. Bad. I get up quietly, careful he can’t see my face which is already leaking. I go to the bathroom and cry, not coming out until all traces of my agony are invisible.

For most of my life, the dark closet has been the only safe place for my pain. If I’ve processed it and crossed over the shame sludge, I’ll share openly, vulnerably, even publicly. But if the pain is real time, it’s almost always silent, even with those closest to me. Only in recent years has that begun to shift, due to the deep dives I’ve made into trauma therapy and CPTSD study. Apprenticeship to the dark underbelly of childhood pain has allowed me to unwind the traumatic neural pathways that kept me in shame and silence during real time suffering.

The relationship between lighthouse resilience and dark closet vulnerability? I call it the dragon butterfly effect.

There was this guy, years before Silas, who flirted outrageously with me online and then invited me to a late lunch at a steakhouse outside of Atlanta. It was a stormy day. The thunder kept interrupting our conversation. He was a strapping fellow, biceps bigger than my beer mug. The dazzling smile and pretty-boy eyes told me he was used to getting what he wanted. I liked it though, because he was confident without being cocky, a rare find.

We enjoyed a flirty but deep, rich, philosophical three-hour meal, which ended in his propositioning me to a hotel. “Oh no, sorry. Before I share my body I need to share heart space first. S*x for me isn’t a plaything. You’re better off with others for that. At this point in my life, I want play accompanied by meaningful exchange, deep respect and mutual emotional investment.”

He didn’t take no easily. After my third definitive “no” and his honest reply that he didn’t want anything serious for now, he cocked his head and considered me quietly. A beat, two, three. “You’re a conundrum. You’re a dragon, all hot fire and ferocity. But inside, you’re a butterfly. Tender, delicate, vulnerable. Not too many guys can deal with that.”

“Then I’ll wait for the one who can.”

I drove down the rain-pelted highway thinking I’d dodged a bullet. I was proud of myself for not responding to his glorious and compelling charms. I’d learned a thing or two since paralysis, date r**e and multiple mismatched dating heartaches.

But as the windshield wipers swished the downpour left right left, I searched the brooding skies for wings, wondering how many creatures might be trying to make their way through the storm. And how many lightning bolt women shelter a heart made of butterfly wings.

No matter what you’re going through today, you are allowed to be both fierce and tender. Your bravery is needed in this world, as we struggle to bring change to a fractured community. But your tenderness and vulnerability is also necessary, as it allows us to recognize ourselves in the mirror of your fragility.
We are tender fragile creatures, and when we feel our shame, but dare to break silence to share imperfectly, we grow powerful wings and strong, capable teeth.

Both are necessary. Both belong. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Especially yourself.
- Angi Sullins

When a woman heals, she taps into a profound strength, transforming her struggles into powerful lessons. By reflecting on her experiences, finding growth in them, and embracing resilience, she turns pain into her superpower—wisdom and empowerment. Her healing journey not only renews her spirit but also inspires those around her, proving just how powerful self-love and determination can be.

To every woman on this journey, know that you are loved and worthy. You are not defined by your past, nor by the weight of the expectations placed upon you. You are here to live, to thrive, and to honor the divine energy that resides within you.

So, dear woman, don’t let the burdens of others weigh you down. You are not responsible for carrying their pain or fixing what is broken in them. Your first responsibility is your own well-being. You must reclaim the right to nurture yourself, to fill your cup before pouring into others.

Too often, women are conditioned to believe that self-care is selfish. That if they prioritize themselves, they are neglecting their duties. But this is a lie that has kept women trapped in exhaustion for centuries. You must break free from this belief. You deserve to be nourished, to rest, to heal, and to be cherished—first by yourself and then by the world around you.

If you are hungry, how can you feed others? If your spirit is empty, how can you give love? You are not meant to run on empty. You are meant to overflow with abundance, with joy, with life. And that begins with giving yourself the love and care you so freely give to others.

It is your birthright to embrace your power, to heal without guilt, and to rise beyond limitations. When you begin to nurture yourself, you align with the divine feminine energy that has existed within women for generations. This energy is sacred, it is untamed, and it is unstoppable.

I believe it is my soul’s purpose to guide men in understanding women and to help women awaken to their ancient power. Women have carried the wisdom of the divine for centuries, yet so many have forgotten. The time has come to remember.

In India, we recognize the ten Mahavidyas—Kali, Tara, Tripura Sundari, Bhuvaneshwari, Bhairavi, Chhinnamasta, Dhumavati, Bagalamukhi, Matangi, and Kamalatmika. These ten divine manifestations of the Goddess represent the many facets of feminine power. They are not just deities to be worshipped; they are energies to be embodied.

Kali teaches fearlessness and destruction of the old self. Tara grants guidance and protection. Tripura Sundari reveals beauty and wisdom. Bhuvaneshwari expands our consciousness. Bhairavi ignites fierce devotion. Chhinnamasta teaches sacrifice and transformation. Dhumavati embodies the wisdom of solitude. Bagalamukhi represents control over negativity. Matangi awakens creativity, and Kamalatmika brings prosperity and abundance.

Every woman carries aspects of these goddesses within her. She is both the nurturer and the warrior, the creator and the destroyer, the healer and the guide. When she embraces these energies, she unlocks her full potential.

This is your time, dear woman. The world is shifting, and the divine mother is calling you to step into your power. She is guiding you to break free from the chains of conditioning and to reclaim your divine inheritance.

When the divine mother allows me, I will write in depth about each of these ten forms so that you may understand their essence and how they live within you. Until then, remember—your journey is sacred, your voice matters, and your presence is a gift to this world.

- Abhikesh