Some Thoughts

أيعقل أن أكون أنا السيئة في روايتهم؟
ربما.
فالناس لا تحب أن ترى انعكاس أخطائها في عيون غيرها.
مررتُ بما يكفي من الأذى لأتعلم الصمت،
وبما يكفي من الانكسارات لأعرف أن بعض القلوب لا تُصلَح مهما حاولنا.
حاولت أن أكون لينة… فظنوا اللين ضعفًا.
حاولت أن أبرر… فزادوا في الحكم.
واليوم، لم أعد أطلب الإنصاف.
لم أعد أبحث عن دور البطلة في قصتهم.
يكفيني أنني نجوت من الفصل الذي كاد يبتلعني.
إن أرادوا أن أكون السيئة… فليكن.
فالشر الحقيقي لم يكن يومًا في ردّ فعلي،
بل في ما اضطررت لتحمله بصمت.
أنا لم أعد غاضبة…
فقط أصبحت أكثر وعيًا،
وأكثر هدوءًا،
وأكثر بعدًا.

It's funny how a happy memory can make you sad.

I can't even recognise myself anymore.
I became a different person I don't know.

They say love is complicated, but I don’t think that’s true. When two people are truly meant for each other, they’ll always find a way to grow together. They’ll talk about what’s bothering them, have honest, mature conversations, and choose kindness and respect over fighting. Letting go isn’t an option—it’s a pitfall. As long as both people put in the effort and act with good intentions, love can thrive, and happiness will follow.

How does it feel to be happy,
when I can't even remember the last time I was?
How do you learn to love,
when your life has only ever revolved around pain?

How do you have fun,
when the feeling is foreign —
when numbness became the norm?
There’s so much I want to experience,
but I can’t shake the weight
of feeling like a burden.

- I need it to stop.
-- you need what to stop?
- I need everything to stop.
-- what do you mean?
- Thh.. That pain inside me, it's eating me slowly from inside in silence like a monster...

Lately, even the small things feel impossible.
Surviving feels like a battle, the most basic needs or out of reach, and the things we hope for seem like stars in the sky, gorgeous, but impossibly far.

She didn't believe anyone could truly love her.
It felt as if something dark and heavy resided.
Within her, whispering all day that she was unworthy.
She wore scares like armor, convinced they
Made her undeserving of love.