Zabe Fails

I saw an amazing show (3rd time) and found a new (to me) incroyable band in the opener Model/Actriz. It was a perfect night, much enjoyed by myself and the best of friends and advocates,

My journey along the path of coping with and receiving help for an illness based in severe pain has been a struggle. I have faced a lot of prejudice as a result of things written in my health file which has led many doctor’s to take as cause to issue a statement, dismissal or diagnosis equivalent to “It’s all in your head.” I feel today that I have lit a tiny candle of hope: I have a doctor who cares beyond trying one test, giving up and saying “IAIYH!” (It’s all in your head).
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# It’s all in your head. I feel you if this is your broken record of medical response.
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No, my new ***r doctor who actually found a pain medication that stops my movements entirely, proving that it’s a pain-based condition and not a movement new disorder. He made this breakthrough because of his revolutionary technique: he listened to me. 🎆

Not everything I solved, of course, but I feel better today. ☺️

Happy Halloween! Grateful that I.got a window of tolerable pain which allowed me to celebrate tonight. Guess the costume. 🤪

Boosting my confidence as I go through a tough year…
My health is poor. I’m in excruciating pain constantly, and no doc will help me. The medical system is broken. My beloved Grandpa John passed away recently. After 4 1/2 years of my landlord doing nothing to fix my apartment and breaking all of the laws, I began to create a paper trail as recommended by the landlord and tenant board. The landlord is refusing to accept my correspondence, because he does not “do paper trails” as he has been “bamboozled before”. He’s evicting me because of my attempts to send correspondence. He has abused me, manipulated me and broken laws. I also have been fighting for my rights as a person with disabilities, and that’s incredibly hard to do. If I don’t have a private apartment in Toronto, I can’t get treatment for my disabilities, which are coming up in a number of weeks. This parts entirely my own fault, but I have no money for food or bills this month. I’ve had to increase my discernment because of multiple traumatic experiences and only befriend people who are good for me, which means I don’t currently have any close friends. Yet, I remain optimistic and I’m always working on my physical and mental health. Being a (good) witch helps too, at least in the century. ⚡️✨

Voted many hairs off the island. 🤷

It's been quite acute with the pain and other symptoms these days, sometimes being unable to type, write or walk, so I'm just going to post anything that I manage to finish.

You're so vain, I bet you think this poem is about you.

Poem – Insatiable Are we in denial of our age? Will our lasting youth and hope destroy us? Because we have ambitions that keep us away from each other–   yet, when we are close, we have moments, and I lov…

Gave myself a purple peekaboo lol. DISTRACT FROM THE PAIN. 👨🏼‍🎤🤪

https://zabefails.com/2024/08/29/the-secret-to-survivin-is-knowin-what-to-throw-away/

The secret to survivin’ is knowin’ what to throw away Every gambler knows That the secret to survivin’ Is knowin’ what to throw away And knowin’ what to keep ‘Cause every hand’s a winner And every hand’s a loser Kenny Rog…

Chillin’ in the wee hours of the morning before my neurological disease really kicks in for the day. 🙏🏼