Melancholy

Does it?

BY SHIM SOON DEUK.

I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if she works herself to death on the farm fields.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if she sits on the furnace and eats a cold bowl of rice for lunch.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if she does laundry with her bare hands and cold water on a winter day.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
'I'm full. I'm not hungry.' Even when she starves while feeding her family.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if her heels are so worn out that they make noises in her blanket.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if her fingernails are so worn out that they can't even be clipped.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
Even if father's anger and our rebellion don't phase her.
I thought it was okay for mothers to do that.
'I miss your grandmother. I miss your grandfather.'
I thought those were just complaints.
She woke up in the middle of the night and cried in silence.
When I saw that ...
Ah! It was not okay for mothers to do that.

I am torn apart but I chose to bear it all alone in this four-corner room. I shiver in cold and feel lost in the space; for the versions that I’ve created to satisfy their visions were never and will never be good enough—so long as I am not seen for who I am.

—K. RDV.

I make my decision. It's my right.

Hug yourself with so much charm, like there's no harm in your arms.

What if this December rains? What if these colds eat us? The warmth I miss is nothing compared to the coldness of Earth.

It hurts more than I thought.
Yes I imagined this, but it's on another level.

God, hiding pain is most painful thing.

"I'm still a hostage of life"

He has a way to make me smile.
He doesn't do anything.
He never did.
He doesn't even knew me.
I knew him, I liked him.
I loved him, I live for him.

Waiting has a way to keep you going ahead.
Waiting alone cannot do anything.
Waiting with hope in eyes and patience in heart.
Hoping can make your eyes glow.
Hoping for best and waiting can can your heart flutter.

He doesn't need to say anything
He can stay calm and low.
I will keep waiting.
He just has to be okay.
His smile will make me smile
I am sure of this
All he needs to do is stay alive and sound.
I will make my way to him.
All he need to do is just wait a little bit.
I will do the hard work and try to reach him.

Cause already he is doing so much for me.
He is making me smile.
He is making me fall deeper.
And I love to fall for him again and again.

Disappointing!! Being Disappointed!!
People! listen.
People! say.
People! remember.
People! don't be insensitive.
People! keep other side's story in mind
People! please love others dream too
People! don't discourage
People! guide but don't force
Popular opinion has a ground so has the unpopular one.
Attacked!!! I feel hurt.
But I'll let it slide.
Just one time.
Again...I don't want to loose her.
Again..I don't care anymore.

People, please be careful.

~novae

If you ever loved me,
I wonder how would it have tickled me
If I only knew you personally,
I could imagine it more beautifully.

Even now I don't know you
But I still fall for you every blink.
You smile, my eyes smile
You cry ,I my heart tears
You laugh , my eyes glows
My eyes know only to reflect you.
I wish your eyes reflected me too.

𝘽𝙚 𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙮 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙣𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙤𝙣 𝙝𝙞𝙜𝙝. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙢𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡.

--𝙑𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙑𝙖𝙣 𝙂𝙤𝙜𝙝