Marija Novak

My bestie gifted this beach dress to me and I wear it on repeat. I always find a way to accessorize it. Love love love it 🙏🏻
And when you wear it at you simply shine.

Today was one of those hard days for me — maybe even more mentally than physically.

And I don’t really know why I’m writing this… but somehow I felt I had to let it out — without shame, and with full honesty.
What can I say… you can judge me, but I like putting my heart on paper.
And sometimes even if it’s just an Instagram paper. 💗

If you have been following me for a while you might know I have been suffering from a neurological disease which was not that obvious in the past, but in the past two weeks things have dramatically progressed. Anyways…

I had plans in the evening with one of my best friends, but before that I was running from one doctor’s appointment to another, and it drained me quite a lot. I actually wanted to cancel.
But my friend, who knows me so well, convinced me to go anyways because she knew I “needed it”. So I gave in, even though I didn’t feel like it.

And then Of course, in my head I still wanted to get ready in my “regular” old-school Marija, lady-like style — the one that defines me, the elegance that has always been a part of my identity. But reality hit me. Hard.
There were no shoes I could wear except my sneakers with the widest sole that give me enough stability to at least walk halfway normally.
So, I put on my sneakers, combined them with trousers, a pullover, and a hat… can you imagine for a beautiful EVENING in one of the most historical places in Vienna ?!?! 😱😱😱 Unimaginable for me! 😉

You might think I’m from another planet for having such silly thoughts about what I wear, but believe me — it’s not just about the clothes. I can hardly walk without people thinking I am simply super drunk.

Nevertheless, I put on my makeup (quite a bit 😉), put on a smile, and did my best for a couple of hours in-spite of the pain. It wasn’t easy going down those stairs, but at the end I’m happy I went. Subconsciously it was something for my soul. (But if you want to see my reality going down the stairs, or just down the street swipe the photos till the video 😂)

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