ExilSpark

Mental Maze
My mind is a battlefield, A war zone where thoughts collide, A constant clash of wills, As doubts and fears take their toll. Dark whispers echo through my brain, Sowing seeds of self-doubt and pain, A relentless barrage of "what ifs" and "maybes", Leaving me lost in a sea of uncertainty. But still I fight, I resist, I challenge every negative twist, I seek to reframe each toxic thought, And replace it with a more balanced plot. It's a daily struggle, a constant test, To keep my mind from becoming a mess, But with each small victory, I gain strength, And learn to tame my thoughts, to find my true length. So if you see me struggling, don't be fooled, I'm just battling my mind, that's all, I'm learning to control my thoughts, to rule, And find peace in the midst of life's whirlwind.

~ExilSpark ✨🌞

Love 😘—a word mostly said but difficult to practice.
In its purest form, it is kind, gentle, and patient.
It gives room to blossom 🌼, to grow, and to glow.
It reflects light 🕯️, character, and humility 📌.
Love does not rush or demand perfection;
it corrects without crushing and guides without control.
It creates a safe environment where hearts breathe freely,
where presence matters more than promises,
and communication revolves around it.
Now that is a place to call home.

—ExilSpark ✨🌞

A JOURNEY THROUGH UNCERTAINTY

Uncertainty is a road without a map, where every step forward feels like walking into the unknown yet it is the only path to grow.

Doubt has a way of toiling up life's beauty, but it is also a teacher, guiding us toward truths we never thought to seek. The myths and disparities between uncertainty and certainty have left me disillusioned, caught between what is and what could be. 🥺

Standing by my own decisions was never my strength and in the end I found myself questioning my very existence, unsure whether I'm moving forward or simply treading water in a sea of "what if s".

Life with it's unknown challenges, has brought me to a standstill a place where uncertainty loops endlessly, pulling me back to the starting mark. How did it come to this? How is it that I've traveled so far yet feel as though I'm standing in the same place?

Perhaps the answers lie not in resisting the unknown but in learning to walk with it. How am I supposed to walk with the unknown when the unknown is unknowable?

I realized that the unknown wasn't my enemy it was my fear of it that held me captive.

Hidden Emotions

A smile,
tight as thread.
Words held
like breath underwater.

No one sees
the quiet weight
I carry
in my chest.

The crown was still dripping with blood when they placed it in my hands 😔

Those Who See Me

Those who see me for me
do not find my face nor my lips attractive.
They study the map of my mind,
read the worn pages of my truths,
and in that naked light
my features blur—
my symmetry, my softness,
lose their shimmer.

Love is the immunity. 😊

Love is...
A glance, a smile,
A pause that stays awhile.
A hand in mine,
No need for sign—
Just hearts that beat in time.

It's painful how, over time, a quiet distance can form between us and the people we once held close those we never imagined growing apart from. But sometimes, no matter how much we care or try to hold on, it’s out of our hands. The strength of a bond isn't built by one person alone. Time, communication, effort these things reflect where someone places their priorities. And when you're no longer one of them, you start to feel the silence. It's then you realize you can't force connection, presence, or love. It has to be mutual. All we can do is accept what is, honor what was, and keep walking forward with grace.

From zero to growing—thanks to you!
✨ "Creating with love. Supported with yours.

Miles apart yet close to the heart 🥰
A love that echoes

Words spoken yet unheard 🥺🥺

Pain

healing is often not linear sometimes you will feel you are all good happy and that you've moved on and sometimes when memories come flooding back the wounds are made anew. You cry 😢 your eyes open but no drop of tears . you hide the pain within and pretend as if everything is perfectly fine but deep down you are just a girl suffering from deep wounds within. it hurts 🥺