Wake-In

“Mom! Can you come here?!”

I genuinely don’t know how many times I asked her that.

And while I may not have gotten the answer in that moment or the one I wanted, my mom has done her best to be there for me in the ways she could.

She still does.

It took me a long time to realize that our parents are not automatically heroes or villains. They are humans who have been around the planet longer and they are doing their best with what they have to keep you on the planet longer too. I’m very grateful to have the privilege of being raised by parents who love me and are both alive.

Parents and their children don’t have a fantasy relationship where everything feels perfect all the time. They help shape us into who we are in ways which are at the core.

There are a lot of aspects of our dynamic which haven’t been easy, and yet we both show up to navigate what life brings us.

I get some amazing traits from my mother and sure, we are both Aries (only a few days apart), which helps. Today, I find myself less focused on what’s different or what we have most in common. I’m simply grateful. Grateful to be here and grateful we choose each other.

It hasn’t been a Disney movie. That has not been our story and it’s a story I was upset not to have for a long time. With all we have both been through, I’m grateful for the story we have at all.

We test each other and we make each other grow. We can push every button and we can make things feel better.

I’m the eldest of three and I’m at an age now where my resilience meets mortality quite a bit. I’m really grateful for each of these moments we can spend together.

Those of us who were here joined to enjoy brunch from her favorite place and I provided her and my dad a Reiki-Infused Sound Bath.

I used to desire to feel seen by my my mom, as all kids do, and now I desire to show her who I am.

Thank you for all of the moments where you dropped whatever it was to be there for me. Each time you have has helped me to be who I am now. ILYU🥰

Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms and maternal figures here and those in spirit.🙏💚🫂

“When did you know you were trans?”

At the exact moment I was meant to.

It has been 12 years since I began transitioning, which for me began in the mind and heart.

This part of my authenticity journey used to be extremely hard, painful, and frustrating. I was depressed and anxious. I felt alone.

And yes, in my medical journey, I’ve come up with challenges requiring me to face my dysphoria head on, over and over again. I’ve been in spaces where I am my only advocate and surrounded by people who don’t know how to support me - it doesn’t feel good.

I kept going because deep inside, I knew one day I would feel whole and complete. That one day, I would feel like Jamie and I would belong. I knew the time would come where I would feel authentic joy, freedom, and healed.

Today, I’m here. Having the privilege of taking my testosterone shot and utilizing my estradiol cream, covered by insurance, and going about my life. It’s not as simple as business as usual and IT IS, my usual.

I wake-up and in, each day, ready to provide what I love to provide on this planet. I get to serve my purpose and be Jamie. Seen and unsee by me and by you.

I’m still here and I’m improving, growing, and transforming. Out of burnout and inside, my real self.

I used to say that younger me wouldn’t have believed that I’m still here and I see now that somehow this wasn’t true. I always knew because I kept going.

I’m so grateful I didn’t give-up. I’m so grateful for those who have supported me along this way, and those who challenged me.

Right now, I feel authentic joy and freedom as Jamie because I create it to be so. I create it for me. I create it for my trans, non-binary and gender-expansive siblings who are no longer here, and those who don’t feel safe to speak-up. I create it for the siblings who are still here, loving through this powerful journey.

I became who I wanted to be when I grew-up. That’s what I’m going to say when I’m in the late years of my life. And for now, I’ll celebrate who I am with full excitement for who I’m becoming. And who that will be is to be revealed in divine timing. Thankfully, I’ll always be Jamie.

Burnout made it to Broadway and it’s Provocative - not in the way you’re thinking.

“Burnout Paradise” is a hilarious and brilliant interactive experience projecting burnout within humanity in real time.

I refuse to spoil this for you because it’s that amazing. As a Burnout Recovery & Intimacy Expert, I desire for you and anyone else you know who is so burned out that they forgot what fun is to attend. It’s SO much fun that my dad got me this t-shirt (thanks dad!) and I ordered tickets to take someone with me to a show in April - the same night.

You already know my inspiration wheels are churning!

And to the - Such an awesome show! I’m allowing clarity on a future collaboration to come in divine timing!

I will never forget about this special experience.

There are way too many memorable moments to list them all.

One really says it all for me.

Dylan Mulvaney shared a beautiful story about a moment of kindness, which changed her life forever, leading her to the stage. She sang “Edelweiss”, from The Sound Of Music, which has been special in my heart since I was very little. And after singing it, she invited the audience to join her. When I tell you that the entirely filled Gershwin sang Edelweiss actually beautifully, all at the same time…

It was one of the most moving and special moments of my entire life.

It felt like what it must have felt like for all those in that scene for the sound of music.

It was more than cathartic.

I’m forever grateful to have had this experience.

I’m turning 37 on Friday and I want every single day to feel like that.

“Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and white
Clean and bright
You look happy to meet me

Blossom of snow, may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever

(Reprise)
Blossom of snow, may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever”

Take a break from the stress of your day to ground and integrate.

Trust me, you’ll feel better than you do right now.

Starting this year burned out? This is your chance to recommit to your healing. Commit to a version of yourself which feels AMAZING and envision what you will be capable of.

The energies of the Equinox/New Year portal are still flowing! This is your moment to clear last year, release the fog, and uplift into a new era. These are lucky times. Opportunities are blossoming when you choose to receive them.

Tune in for a Sound Bath With Guided Meditation (Spring Equinox & Astrological New Year) on Insight Timer FOR FREE at 12 pm pst/2 pm cst/3 pm est/8 pm uk/9 pm cet.

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These moments of my routine are so sacred to me.

A cat at each side.

Reiki flowing.

Gratitude strong.

Breaths deep.

Prayers and intentions long and meaningful.

The ritual.

The safety.

The peace.

The stress, the anxiety, and the fears seem to melt away.

My routine is mindfully curated and evolves when needed.

It brings me joy.

It grounds me.

It frees me.

I get to be an exchange and recharge my energy, thoughts, frequency.

These are the moments where time doesn’t stand still - it expands until it doesn’t exist.

When I resurface and complete my 2-hour routine, which I created from what fills and fuels me with peace, joy, and unconditional love - I am reborn.

Every single day can feel like this for you.

It doesn’t have to be two hours. It could be 5 minutes.

It doesn’t have to be spiritual. It can be playful in other ways.

It doesn’t have to be a burden you can’t make time for. It can be the time you choose for yourself to be your best you.

My challenges are my challenges.

Without this routine…

I am completely burned out.

I am a shell of myself.

I feel exhausted and depleted of my strength, energy. My me-ness.

I cannot serve powerfully.

Nor do I feel powerful.

Please mindfully create a routine for yourself so you can prevent and heal burnout. And if you don’t know how to do this, message me or book a call. I desire for this process to be powerful and fulfilling for you.

You woke up, now Wake-In.

Have you ever experienced grief before there’s someone or something to grieve?

Before the end and possibly right from the start?

Instead of being present and enjoying your favorite moments with that person or the height of an exciting experience, you’re feeling …

Depressed
Overwhelmed
Overstimulated
Exhausted

Because you have a consistent reminder that one day this person won’t hear here or that amazing experience will end.

That’s anticipatory grief and for neurodivergent people like us - this is super common.

Today and for the following two Thursday’s, myself and my co-host of “Getting Intimate With Intimacy”, .jayne.86 will be Co-Teaching on Insight Timer to discuss and support anyone who resonates. Our first event is our Introduction for Tips For Neurodivergent People To Deepen Intimacy Through Anticipatory Grief. We’re going spend the next two diving deeper into our findings and feelings, and then integrating from the experience.

Tune in at 12 pm pst/2 pm cst/3 pm est/8 pm uk/9 pm cet.

Join us here: https://insig.ht/e/9nowwhsMD1b