Life By Default

A monogamous mind can feel both sacred and dangerous at the same time. Because it is not really loyalty to another person first. It is loyalty to your own depth. It is understanding that your attention is sacred because your attachment eventually follows it. It is refusing to cheapen your inner world by scattering profound energy into every fleeting fascination simply because the opportunity presented itself.

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WHEN GRIEF CHANGES THE SHAPE OF YOUR LIFE
A reflection on grief, identity, motherhood, and the quest tension between safety and what calls us forward.

Embracing Grief: Awakening to Life’s Impermanence Explore the profound impact of loss and how grief transforms our perception of love, time, and the essence of living authentically.

The Credence Frequency – An Evolving Story by T.A Hoyt

Before I wrote the piece below, someone asked me a simple question while working on artwork for the cover of my book: “What is The Credence Frequency actually about?” And the truth is, I realized I had never answered that directly. Not really. I could explain the characters. I could explain the story. I could talk about Athena and Nash, the lake house, the coffee shops, the conversations, the tension, the history, the recognition between two people who keep finding each other at the edges of their lives. I could call it literary fiction, psychological romance, emotional realism, or any of the labels people use when they need a bookstore shelf to make sense of something deeply human....

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Coffee Shop Conversation

I think if I’m honest, some part of this began weeks ago sitting in a coffee shop, somewhere in the middle of a conversation that lingered longer in me than I expected it to. One of those rare conversations that moves effortlessly between darkness and lightness, heavy things and playful things. The kind where it feels neither person is trying to perform, impress, or arrive anywhere specific. Just two people moving naturally through thought, humor, tension, curiosity, honesty, silence, observation… just living a simple moment in time together… The kind of conversation that leaves you feeling quietly rearranged afterward, not dramatically, not enough to fully explain, but enough to make you aware that something dormant in you has started breathing again....

Exploring Depth: The Difference Between Attention and Intention Explore the depth of connection vs. mere visibility in digital interactions. Discover how true presence fosters genuine relationships.

.....this kind of balance, this kind of power, does not just shift what you think or believe, it alters what you are available for, what you can genuinely participate in without resistance building beneath the surface

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Standing in the Question

Standing in the Question There are moments in life that don’t arrive with clarity… they arrive with pressure. Not loud, not chaotic, but steady. Persistent. Like something unseen has placed its hand between your shoulder b…

Wanted Without Possession

I wrote this as my Saturday morning thought…. I do not measure love by titles.Not by boyfriend, not by husband, not by anything that asks to be named before it is understood. There is something rare about being chosen by someone who simply comes toward you because they want to, because the pull is real, because the care is deliberate. A connection that is deeply mutual, fiercely private, and untouched by the noise of expectation. To love each other fully, to remain sovereign in your own lives, and still return to one another by desire rather than obligation…...

Wanted Without Possession I wrote this as my Saturday morning thought…. I do not measure love by titles.Not by boyfriend, not by husband, not by anything that asks to be named before it is understood. There is something rar…

Why Make Is Make Sense?

“Love is the art of translation” I read this today and yes, it's a beautiful line… but… there is a serious but for me here. I am not sure if lately I am becoming a little cynical… but am I? I flip through post after post, often saying the same thing.Have I outgrown it all?They do say you should always outgrow your teacher… is that where I am? But if I really sit with it, I am not cynical, I’ve become precise.I think there is a vast difference, and I often wonder if people confuse the two....

Why Make Is Make Sense? “Love is the art of translation” I read this today and yes, it’s a beautiful line… but… there is a serious but for me here. I am not sure if lately I am becoming a little cynical… b…

What Changes, Is What Makes You Whole

I didn’t come to this understanding lightly. It wasn’t something I read, or heard, or decided to believe. It came through the kind of moments that don’t ask permission, the kind that shift you whether you’re ready or not, through loss that doesn’t just take someone from you, but changes how you see everything that remains, and through years of a relationship quietly unraveling that once felt certain. Somewhere in the middle of all of that, something in me began to pay attention in a way it hadn’t before, and what I started to see was this....

What Changes, Is What Makes You Whole I didn’t come to this understanding lightly. It wasn’t something I read, or heard, or decided to believe. It came through the kind of moments that don’t ask permission, the kind that shift you whet…

What is easy, Isn’t always right…

S*x is easy. A quiet truth most people don’t bother to argue with. Two people can meet across a bar, trade a glance that feels like permission, or match on a screen, exchange just enough words to create momentum, and within hours end up horizontal. Bodies moving in rhythm, familiarity borrowed from somewhere else, something that looks like connection but rarely asks for it. It’s accessible. Immediate. It requires very little beyond timing and willingness. Ease, however, has never been the same thing as depth. What often happens in those moments is not intimacy, it’s proximity....

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You’re Not Too Sensitive, You’re Finely Tuned

There’s a quiet narrative that gets handed to people who feel deeply. Too sensitive, too much, too emotional, as if the ability to feel, to truly register the subtle shifts, the pauses, the unspoken, was something that needed to be softened or corrected. But sensitivity, in its truest form, is not fragility, it is perception. To be someone who notices the change in tone, the silence between words, the energy in a room before anything is said, this is not weakness, it is awareness. And awareness, in a world that rushes past everything meaningful, is rare....

You’re Not Too Sensitive, You’re Finely Tuned There’s a quiet narrative that gets handed to people who feel deeply. Too sensitive, too much, too emotional, as if the ability to feel, to truly register the subtle shifts, the pauses, the unspoke…