Gloomlie

It’s that time again when I can’t stand my art style and art block is smacking me around like the bug I am. Here’s a dumb thing for now while I battle this existential crisis.

(Photo is from 10 years ago)

A Barbarian Ewok for Star Wars day! I was asked to draw him super buff

Not used to going out in public, my social anxiety led me to drink to take the edge off. Then, my new battle was trying to play off taking a gulp of soy sauce by accident 🤷🏻‍♀️

The first episode of The Gaslight District comes out on April 18 and I’m super excited. The art style is *chef’s kiss*

It’s always a good time for Over the Garden Wall

In the interest of improvement, I’ve been using photos of myself as reference in practice. Of course, all old photos of myself are either deadpan selfies or stupid clown expressions at the camera. I guess I gotta get over how much I hate my appearance and take new ones. Anyways, me at junior prom always made me laugh, so here’s a sketch of that just for fun.

Pull up a metaphorical chair, if you’d like. My art has felt… stagnant. I’m dissatisfied with it. Some days I’m content with my usual fare of art subjects, but my sketch folder is positively brimming with stuff I’m far more interested in these days. Cartoony portraits are still very much a love of mine, and well within my comfort zone.

But I wanna branch out. I’ve already mentioned wanting to explore more difficult character poses and perspectives, but there are times (increasingly so) that it goes beyond even that. There is a fear that comes with my lack of experience and skill regarding landscapes, composition, rendering, etc. of what I already draw. Posting evidence of just how flawed and terrible I am at these things is terrifying to me. I can admit I’m so lacking in these things, but showing the internet at large has me paralyzed. That doesn’t even scratch the surface of the subject of my many sketches that litter my sketch folder.

I wanna draw horror. I want to delve into disturbing and frankly disgusting art that I have had in my head for as long as I can remember. It’s no secret that I enjoy horror movies, and close friends and family may remember my short lived goal of doing autopsies for a living back when I was in high school. I did well in my biology classes because I was fascinated with what makes living things tick.

I gave up on that and focused on drawing cartoony stuff because, honestly? I didn’t want to worry my family and friends. I’m okay with keeping my “art therapy in the form of body horror” to the sketch folder and leaving it at that. I guess the point of this whole thing is:

Would anyone be interested in my horror art? Maybe on a secondary account? Does just asking this make my loved ones want to cut me out of their lives? It probably wouldn’t be good art by any means, but I think I might want to try?

I haven’t returned to hibernation! I’m just working on some projects that take time. On that note, I’m drawing a few characters over and over and over in hopes of getting comfortable with their designs. This is one such warm up to keep myself consistent (though at this point, her design is still subject to change, and the art style is not as simple as depicted here)

Finally working on an idea I’ve had in my head for several years instead of letting it continue to fester in my mind is scary!

Gloomlie vs. Brain 😤

It’s all good I won this round (remission)

January 6 they’ll be fixing my brain. One eye is down(it wasn’t very strong to begin with), but the other is doing its best. Some days, doodles like this is all I can do. Some days, I can do a little more, and some days I can do a little less. See you guys soon