Watch Me Rise Stronger

Oh this statement. Whew. Truth.
Rewiring the brain’s pathways takes time. How much time depends on each person’s experience(s). I didn’t like hearing, “It takes time.” at the beginning of the healing process. I wanted tangible, quantifiable results. When does it get better? When will the nightmares stop? How much longer will my body keep hurting? When will these triggers stop being so triggery? Will I ever be rid of this damage??!! The answer is “Yes.” It does get better. The nightmares do go away. Sleep is restorative. The body does start to be less chronically inflamed. And yes there will be some residual flare ups now and again. Each person’s story is unique. There are variables. Overall, in general, yes, it gets better. Healing is tangible, quantifiable. No longer is it about “protecting your peace”. You are peaceful.
Encouragement to you:
•Be kind to yourself.
•Your healing will take as much time as it takes. It isn’t a race. It’s a long distance journey. One that will require self care, rest, nourishment and consistency.
The moment will arrive when your body finally believes, ‘It’s over now.’

This right here. I have have definitely entered this part of recovery/healing. It’s also unveiled another layer of inner work to be done. Encountering yet another layer of inner work frustrates me to no end. However, I have learned to give myself permission and the space to call it what it is instead of glossing over, admonishing myself or ignoring it altogether. Know what? Doing the work is exhausting, no doubts there BUT the results are worth it! I have no qualms about protecting the peace I have worked so hard to create. It doesn’t have to be harsh. I don’t have to place a billboard telling people what I’m doing. It can be as benign as politely declining an invite and I don’t over explain anymore. It feels so good to make myself the priority first now. Recognising, Unlearning and Relearning. We are so worth it! Cheers! 👩🏻‍🦰