LexC

05.29.2026 - “How Will I Know” by Whitney Houston

I’m always in my shell because my mind works against me. My mind tells me really mean things when I’m struggling, but I still try to show up. I still try to put in effort. I still try to push through it.

I recognize for myself that it shows outwardly as low energy or low interaction. I try not to let my perceived bad vibes rub off on others, so I just keep my distance believing people will be better off with me not around or at minimal presence. I try to fight these thoughts, and I try not to make excuses. I still show up. I just worry it’s not enough or comes off wrong 😔.

This “love” stuff is actually kinda scary. It’s beautiful, but the level of depth it requires is a little daunting at first. Who will surrender? 🥰🥰🥰

…and hesitant to say, the music hasn’t been motivating me either. I think I’m in some type of transitional period, and I feel ready for the next venture or the next challenge. I’m not sure, but I’m craving something other than what my normal has been. Anybody relate?

Whether they do good or do bad, understanding who they are will inform how you judge their intentions! Also, Week 2 - Day 5 ✅!

4/20

Worked from 8:30am to 12:30pm. Worked OUT from 12:45 to 1:50pm. Went to my 2nd work from 2:30 to 10pm. It was a long day, but it was certainly productive!

I’m learning that I will squeeze in a workout for this Snatched In 6 challenge I’m part of. I don’t want to give myself excuses. Luckily, there was food at the event. Otherwise I wouldn’t have had time to eat yesterday.

Love yourself and others where you/they are, and keep that love along the way! Also, one bite at a time!

It’s very heavy today, y’all. 😔