Sharon's Poems

To my sons

To say you are the light of my life
Doesn't do justice
To how I feel
Because I could live without light
But not without you

I love you so much it makes me want to cry
From how moved I am
And how grateful I am to kiss and hug you each day
To see the wonderful beings you both are
To love you truly is a gift beyond measure

You both are the reason for me
For everything
Prehaps it isn't right, but it's absolutely true
I would have died if it wasn't for you

My sons I pray each day this love I feel for you
Continues to shine your way
Whether it is from me or from others
Who see the undying good in you
and will love you as I do

Know I will always be there for both of you
In this life and beyond the grave
We may not be sure of what awaits us at the crosssing
But I know, not even the devil himself could keep me from you, and death certainly won't

If love moved the first things
That came to be
Then know my love for you comes from there
From the beginning of all things
Through me, into me, to you

When I am just dust
On this earth
Even that dust will love you when you are alone
And bathe in the rivers
Because my tears ran there
And as long as a single molecule
An echo
Of me remains in this universe

It will keep loving you

The ghost poem

I can't even describe
The nothingness of you not being in our lives..
As much as you were never there
It leaves a hollowing pain
A sore.. That can't seem to disappear

Yet.. You call.. I hear your voice..
Like a digital ghost
And you make our children smile
Through the pixels in the screen
And the call cuts.. And the screen goes black
Vanished..
Like everything we used to be

At night I have a reoccurring dream
I'm walking through the house I used to live in
My objects.. My pots and pans.. The bath toys.. My duvet cover... My books..my sand picture, my paintings, The children's pictures on the wall.. My carpet..
Your room..
Your things.. Your headphones, your sock drawer, the speakers, your dusty figurines

Mabye home is what I'm trying to find... In the items lost that that survive in my mind.

Then I wonder who lives in that house now?
Is it cold?
Are the walls still white or covered in mold?
What about the things that fell behind the big book case?
I could never clean there.. Half built kinder egg surprises..
An old ID card..
Supermarket reciepts
A takeout menu we never ordered
Pieces of puzzles we lost long ago?
Are they still there?
Do the new people know?

The little broken tiles on the balcony? I'd crack them off and watch them smash down onto the cement
Promising myself if it got that bad.. I'd buy new ones and it would be an exciting family project..
I wonder if my cherry tree is still alive?
Did nobody give it water?
And the murals I made in the children's bedroom? Are they still shiny? Have they gone faint? Or Did they paint over them
With white dull paint?
Do those paintings still Live secretly hiding beneath that wall
Do those walls remember the children at all?
Is there something of us still there? A crayon behind the toilet bowl? Some ripped tights?
Strands of our hair hanging down the shower pipes?
Does an echo remain? An echo of A thousand sleepovers, laughs, dinner parties and children's parties?
Or did you erase every part of me?
All things you never saw, a parallel universe
As you moved through that house, ignoring us
Like you were slowly going mad, living the curse
Where you could pretend
That we didn't love each other
That I didn't carry two children
And birth them through blood and screams
That you didn't see me alone
And you didn't hear me cry for help

Now
Is a court room and a sheet of paper
In index of numbers
That go like 1.2.1
1.2.
1.3.
3.1
That detail of how much you still want to hurt me
And it states both our names and middle names and addresses and the lawyers..
And every little detail of how it all went
And how it is
Except they don't know

That 10,000 leagues beneath both our dreams
In a world that barely exists
Our old house found its way there
washed up on shipwreck beach
Lying crooked on its side
Beneath those heavy gray skies
A little light shimmers, I know you're inside

I go in and stand outside your bedroom door.
In that house
In the dark
We can't even talk
Because theres nothing to say
Not even in the afterlife dreams
And I know you can hear, but you won't come out
I can't see you
I don't even dare look
But my heart whispers two words through the keyhole..

"I'm here"

Akelare the witches

I awoke coughing, choking
Blinded, reached for the phone
3am
Lay heaving in bed
Hair drenched, covered in perspiration

I took off my clothes
Breathed again
Slower this time
Walked out into the starless night

Light from my balcony
The moon, reflected like a talisman
Over pool water
There I stood
My toes curling over the edges

I let myself fall in
Cold gripping me
Into contortions
Dancing
Soundless voiceless
Beneath black water

Crying laughing beneath
Dark water
Emerging
Like a white crucifix

My body danced to the rythm
Of the dogs howling
And the rooster crowing
To the flapping
Of bat wings
I spun

The moon watching
Trees swaying
Warm wind blowing
I kiss the sky with my tongue

I sang

They didn't burn all of us

Like rain

Your caresses came like rain

Your caress came like rain
Over the stillness of the dead dessert
Your caress like the breeze
Playing melodies through hollow bones

Hard dry bones that longed for water
Too little too late
Your caresses a blanket of rain
Over the tightened leather of my co**se

Rain that brought no comfort to parched throats,
Rain that fell from the abyss
Rain that came in silence after languished cries of the living
Rain after death, mercy lost

Oh how I cried for your pity as I died under the scorching sun of your selfishness
Of your indifference
Of your rage

Useless painful rain
That pass all too quickly
That ended abruptly, a hurried funeral

Mocking Rain, mocking past pain
That came rashly, and then fell

Never again

Story : The Giantess

Once upon a time, in a great rock castle by a waterfall lived a giantess named Brae
She was as tall as a house and as strong as 20 oxen. She had long blonde hair which she wore in two plaits down the front of her great breasts and green baby eyes sparkling like pale emeralds.
Her hands and feet were covered in calluses because each day she worked the mines, throwing large boulders into the air and letting them smash down to pieces to find hidden gems.
She would collect the gems, wash the dirt away under the waterfall. She would load up her cart and heave all the way to the market, where she would barter the gems to buy hay and honey for her two cows - Maggie and Georgina.
The giantess was a gentle soul, but a great sadness lay in her heart, for she was terribly lonely. You see, she had been found as a baby by the waterfall by a wood cutter and his wife. Nobody had ever seen a giant before. She was already the size of a horse at just a few months of age.
They raised her with much love, but also fear. Fear because she was so big, fear because of her strange ways, fear because she could simply kill a grown man with a swing of her arm.
She grew up amongst all the village children, yet had no real friends
She grew up known by everyone far and wide, yet she always felt she didn't really know anyone
When her poor parents passed away, Brae felt lonelier than ever, and one thing made her so so sad, more than anything. She had never been hugged.
At least not that she remembered. She had seen humans hug, and she had hugged tens of humans at the same time, but she always wondered what it was like.
She spent countless evenings in her giant bed in the castle dreaming of what it would be like to feel the warmth of two arms hugging her all around. What it must feel like to even be squeezed a little, to feel so safe.
Brae missed hugging so much, she would hug everything and everyone she met, from trees to sheep to the odd villager, always being very gentle not to hurt them, but all they could do was stretch their arms open across her great chest, and they looked like a little rosary being hugged.
Everything was just soo small, and she was just too big to be loved.
Her cows Maggie and Georgina would give her great big nudges with their heads when they saw her cry. "Cheer up!" They would Moo
And Brae would smile for a while.

One day Brae couldn't take it anymore, she woke up early, and brought Maggie and Georgina to a beautiful green pasture by the mountains where they could be free.
The pasture was at the very very top of a mountain facing the sea.

Then Brae took a deep breath and began to run downhill
Faster and faster and faster till her arms flung off her body, and the teeth from her mouth, she reached the cliffs and threw herself so hard.

Legs locked together, fused into a tail, and her hands became fins, she dived into the blue.
She had turned into a whale, and the water hugged her so tight
It hugged her so warm that she danced and splashed in the hug of the sea with all the joy she had never felt

That day she said goodbye to the world of air and earth and became a daughter of the ocean. The ocean who embraced her and sang to her with it's waves and storms
and gave her all the love she had always wanted.

Eating maketket

Noah said he eats ants
He says they taste yummy
Like sour candy
Some even taste like coca cola

He said the black ones are the best
He sucks then right off the walls
And that's why he's so good at football

So I found a big black one
By a coconut tree
And I ate it..

I cried for an hour

When will you die?

When will you die Mummy?
I suppose when I grow old
But are you old now?
Sort of. I'm 33 and I hope to die when I'm 80
Will we have to dig your grave? Because I don't like digging in the mud
No, I'll make sure others do it for you
Okay then!
Just so you know, I'll miss you when you go

You can’t marry Lizzie!

Little lizie and Mary Lou
Said enough playing around for you
It's time you stop this dilly dally
And decide which one of us you'll marry

Silly Billy said " I'll marry Lizie"
And Mary Lou ran off in tears
But she was back in flash
" remember you married me last year"!
No I didn't!
Yes you did!
I gave you my chocolate and you said yes
So there you go
You can't marry lizzie silly billy

Infact Il tell u more!
I'm divorcing you
And I'll marry Lizie instead!

The telescope

When it hurts so unbearably much
I have to sneak a peak
Through my telescope

There's a couple hugging in bed watching tv
They fart and laugh
There are pop corn crumbs on his beard

I adjust my lens
Down town, in a neon supermarket
They are in their late fifties
And she caresses his back as he loads the shopping onto the till

A few blocks away, in a chestnut colored room they are browsing the furniture online catalogue, dreaming away.

The ones with the inside jokes crack me up! Who knows how it all started, just a joy to hear.

When I feel more daring, I spot the glances
Of old loves rekindling with a stare
At a smoky karaoke

And when I zoom deeper I can spy the forbidden loves
Sharing fractions of seconds
At office functions

And the couple with the 5 kids and the sedan?
The one where even he changes the nappies?
Pure delight, to be enjoyed on special occasions

I don't dare watch my favorite things
Like young lovers kissing on the beach
I don't dare watch wedding kisses,
Absolutely forbidden are the airport arrivals

But from here, through my telescope
I can peak

At pecks on cheeks as people say goodbye early morning on the way to work
And then smiles when that text arrives on a teens phone.

I adore the half hugs too
When he comes to pick her up from out some Building
Or when she passes him the bathroom

My lens picks up the sport couple too, sweating along side each other
But I love the ones who just stroll quietly along side each other
Because they can be

Together

I watch until it hurts so unbearably much
Il carefully fold my telescope away
Back into its case

And Il try to forget

Until next time it hurts so unbearably much

That I have to sneak a peak

The wasp

I drifted slowly salty and sunburnt
On a plank board in navy blue seas
And as I stood
There came a scratcing crawling
Upon my face which I flung far

The observed..
The wasp
Frantically struggling upon the surface of the water
Helpless the yellow poisonous brute

Fighting for its life... Prehaps wind or destiny...
Had brought it upon my nose
Prehaps a mistake of fate?
Did it deserve?
To drown upon the endless sea...
Was it a crime?

And here I stood to judge at the end
It's fate
Rescue it? Or not care?
But there

Our souls lay on a plank of scale
The clock ticking
I knew
Upon the lifting of this tiny soul
To the heavens
Mine would have descended

And I pondered, the pain of it's sting
And the lord
Upon his cross
Shows his eyes

It was barely moving now
So I dived
And i swam against the currents
I reached
Reaaccched
And it climbed fast
Upon my hand

And flickered its wings
And flew
A speck of yellow
Disappeared into the immense dark blue
And a voice
From the inside
Outside
Said

Thank you

Come child away!
We have no time to loose
Dutty tough as says Miss Lou
The old Gaol world of men
Away swiftly now
To where the sidewalk ends
We shall go a bear hunting
In the sunshine and beneath the moon
I carry the map of Dwarven runes

Come child run
I know how to have fun if you'll teach me
And the words to the songs if you'll sing me
I'll show you lore if you faith me
And the merry things of life if you'll live me
And I'll be your mother if you birth me
Through the wardrobe into the frozen lands
Pixie dust i'll hold your hand

Come child see
There are princes hidden in this pond
Bellow and sing we shall go see the antler'd king
Who lives deep in the emerald woods
Paint our faces with charcoal soot
And Phonecian ships we shall then loot

The night goddess brings her starr'd veil upon us slow
And we shall bathe in river water
Around the lake Isle of Innisfree
Oberon's potion anoint thee
For we are spirits of another sort

Follow the yellow brick road to the fields of eglantine
Let the heart run along silver shores

And we can sleep in those jungles underneath
Our leav'd tent
A candlelight and moonlight
As wisps draw haloes around
our heads
And we need not dream of better
For tis there in the warm buttered earth
Trees embrace us now and forever

Sharon Bonne

Dear Unknown,

I read your words
Like footprints leading to an Oasis
I read your words
Like red Saharan sand blowing into Northern lands
I saw your words
Like flood waters over the Okavango
I felt your words
Like the cold rich currents from the depths
I needed your words
Like the sunrise over the Arctic
I missed your words
Like Star navigators on clouded nights
I kept your words
Like Cowry shells I collected as a child,
Cast onto white beaches
Before anyone knew their worth
I
Knew