DIWAS ART

Lately I am enjoying this style of sketching. No perfectionism, no pressure , no laws just pure emotions flowing out of my mind to the blank paper through my hands.

The beginning was always from becoming a great realistic artist. But with time I have arrived where I was started. But this time I have experienced a taste of styles and returning back where I though is bad now is great for me.

There's. Nothing to say this time.
All the dares are fading aways. Everything is falling apart. There was a time a hope of dreams and now when I try to find that dreams I dont even find myself. It's fading.

Life is running in the loop and all I am doing is trying cut it sometimes and failing all the time. I dont know ......

Sometimes I think I am living life of novel which is already written. I feel I am playing the role of main character of the story whose name is Diwas. I feel I am living the life of novel may be which is about to be written in future. I feel It's not my life but life which writer thought to imagine and make it so sick .
I feel I am in the middle of of great novel just roaming around. I feel I am in the movie. I feel I am in someone's mind . I feel I am about to live my best life which writer of the great novel is about to write or may be already written and I am playing the play.

Btw thanks to Chinese friend for capturing these moments .

I most of the time fails the Painting not because the composition is great but coz of no resonance. I paint what gives me sense of life , sense of feelings. Not all the time this happens and I end up with blocks and leave it. But whenever I paint whatever I feel I always does something.g great for myself.

There are days when I have roamed around a days and still finds nothing to paint. And sometimes painting the same place again and again just to catch the lights during different moments of life.
Btw this reference I got from Pinterest for learning purposes.

There's lot to say. But zigzag
These days I am practicing from photo references. For a week now haven't been going for plein air and trying get more confidence to paint freely.
Before completing these for a week I was like.tsunami in my brain. About thoughts of what how when bla bla.
Even now I have that questions though 😅
But can say I am more calm then before....
Hoping to create and learn more.

There's phases. Sometimes I feel oh great and sometimes I feel lost and sometimes clear. Sometimes I reflect bold and stuck , sometimes I keep it simple.
Lots of things going on and I am just trying to figure out stuffs. Figure out the compositions, the colors values forms bla bla.
There's night i could sleep because I feel unclear and lost. Watching professionals paint, try to copy and fail. Coz There's something I am missing. Something I know something I dont. But I believe one day very soon I am gonna figure the s**t out and I will paint like them as well. I have hope and I am constantly working onto it. I will figure it out soon.

Morning at the fore Kuntabesi
The view was so amazing out there. Wish could stay for 2 3 days.
These days I am quite confused and feels like I know nothing. I am constantly trying to figure out stuffs . I dont what's not working and what would work. But I am trying and trying amd trying. I ve got something to figure out at least . I am chasing something. Just confused how 🤔.